Compass

You are my compass.

Now, before you role your eyes let me explain.

I have been through a lot, I have experienced a lot.

I grew up way too fast, with no direction.

And when you found me, I was lost. I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t know what the next step should be. I had no support and no one telling me I needed to figure things out.

And that’s what you did.

You pointed me north.

You didn’t tell me which way south was, or force me to move towards it. That was all on me, but you shined the light on me and let me know I could move forward.

And to this day, when I don’t know what to do, when I am stuck not knowing where to go next, when I am stressed out, and crying, and upset.

Whatever it is I am feeling, you point me north.

No matter how busy you are, how stressed out you are or how much you have going on;

I know you will always find time to point me north.

You are my compass.

intend

I love you. 

The good and the bad

and all of the in between. bits.

And, I think 

You should accept that I intend to stick around. 

phantom

There is a phantom cuddle. Do you get this too? I am sleeping and I swear I can feel your arm around me, and me cuddling into you. and you breathing on my face, and as much as I hate that I would always wake up and see how peaceful you are. and I like to think part of that is having me in your arms. And I still feel that at night but instead of opening my eyes and looking at you, I open my eyes and see nothing.

I am alone.

and its hard, and I just miss you so damn much. Because although things are difficult, they are better in your arms. 

P.S  Do you recognize this photo? This is the first bed we cuddled in.

(yes. I took a picture)

My love,

Hi, its me. I just wanted to let you know how much I love you. I know I am very vocal about the bad things in our relationship, but I want you to know how amazing I think you are.  you are my best friend, and I could not imagine myself with anyone else. you make me happier than I have ever been and I love you very much. I know you are busy and don’t always have the time that I deserve/need, but that is okay.  Because you are worth it, and one day you will have a wee more free time (just not any time soon). I love you. and I know we aren’t perfect, but that just makes it so we have to work a little for our relationship. and nothing worth having is easy.

I love you.

Your Love,

Jess

most loved Dog!

Cheddar Bob is going to get more love 

than most people ever get!